Can I Blame This on Menopause

WARNING THIS POST WILL CONTAIN:
FOUL LANGUAGE, CRYING, PITY PARTY FOR ONE, AND SCREAMING

Don't say I didn't warn you.

This Christmas totally sucks big ones. What big ones I don't know, but it fucking sucks. Can I blame it on menopause? the economy? or just ourselves for not better preparing for the holidays? Or on our "white elephant" of a house I hate to the bottom of my soul?

It started out at the beginning of the December. Thinking of the gifts and what to buy for whom and how much to spend. You know, pretty well what everyone does around this time of year. We weren't honestly to much worried about it as when Trucker got hired on last year he was told he would receive a $1,000 Christmas bonus. So we took this amount and figured it into the holiday's as well as part of his income. So thoughts were wonderful all year we wouldn't have to worry for once about sticking money back for the gift buying. God it felt good to think this. It took so much stress off of us to think we didn't have to worry.

You see, Trucker and I live paycheck to paycheck like most other people around here. Though Trucker and I both make what we consider to be good money, it's still hand to mouth.

Back to the Christmas bonus. As said we figured this into our holiday season. Though probably stupid on our part since this is what we were told, we counted on it. Mid December rolls around and we didn't hear one thing about this bonus. From what the other employees told Trucker last year they had a company party mid December and passed out the bonuses at a nice restaurant and then also gave them two weeks additional pay because they close for two weeks, from Christmas till after New Years. So about one week ago we give up on this bonus idea and I work extra hours and so does Trucker thinking we would take my last check before Christmas and go shopping this past weekend. Actually had planned on going this past Saturday afternoon.

We all woke up Saturday in a great mood thinking of Christmas in a few days. Plans were worked out, my kids are coming, the grand babies will be here. Not having to cook this year as we are opening Santa's gifts bright and early Christmas morning you all know when you have kids there is NO sleeping in on Christmas and then heading to my parents for Christmas dinner and good times.

Instead of shopping for the presents Saturday, guess what we shopped for instead? Come on, I'll give you a hint here:
A FUCKING HOT WATER HEATER!

Oh I know I should be thankful for the money we had to purchase this. And believe me a part of me does. However, it sucks big ones to have to sit your kids down and say "Merry Christmas kids" you have hot water from Santa. See I told you a screaming, crying, temper tantrum blog today.

Later on come Sunday morning we also got some more depressing news. My son called and due to the weather we had around these parts, they won't be coming for the holiday's either. They also live hand to mouth and since the roads were so bad due to the ice, neither of them could get to work for over a week. They live in the Ozarks of Arkansas and "back in the sticks" they were stuck at home and couldn't even get out of their driveway.

So needless to say "angry" is what I feel about Christmas this year.

If you made it this far in reading my ranting and raving, thanks for letting me get this out before heading in to work today. This will make the customers on the other end of the phone feel much better about talking to me today whether they know it or not.


Sorry for being such a downer to all of you today. Don't let my sour attitude make you not enjoy the day.