Monday, December 22, 2008

Can I Blame This on Menopause

WARNING THIS POST WILL CONTAIN:
FOUL LANGUAGE, CRYING, PITY PARTY FOR ONE, AND SCREAMING

Don't say I didn't warn you.


This Christmas totally sucks big ones. What big ones I don't know, but it fucking sucks. Can I blame it on menopause? the economy? or just ourselves for not better preparing for the holidays? Or on our "white elephant" of a house I hate to the bottom of my soul?


It started out at the beginning of the December. Thinking of the gifts and what to buy for whom and how much to spend. You know, pretty well what everyone does around this time of year. We weren't honestly to much worried about it as when Trucker got hired on last year he was told he would receive a $1,000 Christmas bonus. So we took this amount and figured it into the holiday's as well as part of his income. So thoughts were wonderful all year we wouldn't have to worry for once about sticking money back for the gift buying. God it felt good to think this. It took so much stress off of us to think we didn't have to worry.

You see, Trucker and I live paycheck to paycheck like most other people around here. Though Trucker and I both make what we consider to be good money, it's still hand to mouth.

Back to the Christmas bonus. As said we figured this into our holiday season. Though probably stupid on our part since this is what we were told, we counted on it. Mid December rolls around and we didn't hear one thing about this bonus. From what the other employees told Trucker last year they had a company party mid December and passed out the bonuses at a nice restaurant and then also gave them two weeks additional pay because they close for two weeks, from Christmas till after New Years. So about one week ago we give up on this bonus idea and I work extra hours and so does Trucker thinking we would take my last check before Christmas and go shopping this past weekend. Actually had planned on going this past Saturday afternoon.

We all woke up Saturday in a great mood thinking of Christmas in a few days. Plans were worked out, my kids are coming, the grand babies will be here. Not having to cook this year as we are opening Santa's gifts bright and early Christmas morning you all know when you have kids there is NO sleeping in on Christmas and then heading to my parents for Christmas dinner and good times.

Instead of shopping for the presents Saturday, guess what we shopped for instead? Come on, I'll give you a hint here:

A FUCKING HOT WATER HEATER!

Oh I know I should be thankful for the money we had to purchase this. And believe me a part of me does. However, it sucks big ones to have to sit your kids down and say "Merry Christmas kids" you have hot water from Santa. See I told you a screaming, crying, temper tantrum blog today.

Later on come Sunday morning we also got some more depressing news. My son called and due to the weather we had around these parts, they won't be coming for the holiday's either. They also live hand to mouth and since the roads were so bad due to the ice, neither of them could get to work for over a week. They live in the Ozarks of Arkansas and "back in the sticks" they were stuck at home and couldn't even get out of their driveway.

So needless to say "angry" is what I feel about Christmas this year.

If you made it this far in reading my ranting and raving, thanks for letting me get this out before heading in to work today. This will make the customers on the other end of the phone feel much better about talking to me today whether they know it or not.


Sorry for being such a downer to all of you today. Don't let my sour attitude make you not enjoy the day.






8 comments:

Mental P Mama said...

Treasia, I feel your pain. One year I got to buy a new washer and dryer AND a furnace the week before Christmas. sigh. At least you have hot water. And each other. Take care.

Living on the Spit said...

Oh Treasia...I am sorry that things are rough going right now, but rest assured, you are certainly not alone.

Christmas is more than one day a year and some new family traditions can be made out of the worst situations...I know that this sentiment may not be really helpful right now...but maybe one day you will all be able to look back on this situation and joke about it.

Technically, you have until January 6 which is Twelveth Night.

You can rant whenever you want to darling...I will always be here for you!

(That does suck though)

Marlene

Snooty Primadona said...

I'm sorry that the dark forces are trying to ruin your holidays. Don't let them win!

Okay, I hope this makes you feel better. A little while ago I decided I should try on the dress I got for tonight (just to make sure it still fits) and IT WON"T ZIP UP. So much for buying a dress last year & getting a helluva price. I'm wearing a dress I've worn before, which doesn't really bother me.

Then, while finishing up Christmas shopping today, good old Bank of America put a stop on our credit card. When we got home we had a message from them on the phone that said there was some suspicious activity on our account. Yes, you Mental Midgets, we were CHRISTMAS SHOPPING, for God's sake. Are they just trying to piss us off or what? Hubby ripped them a new one though, lol.

Then, hubby tells me that he got me a *couple's gift* this year and it plugs into an outlet. Oh Joy! Now I'm excited.

And, above all else, oil is back to what it was when we were broke the last time. Now I'm really revved up, lol.

However, I have to remember that this year will be nothing like the year I found our son's heroin & needles on Christmas Eve. So, I guess I have to be thankful for small things. He has been clean for two years now and I thank God for that....

Gail said...

I got a washer and dryer and Hubby got hay for the cows!
Oldest grandson wanted to know why there was only one package under the tree...

Frazzled Farm Wife said...

Sorry to hear that you are having a bad day....or days I should say! Praying that God keeps you close to him and lifts your spirits during this season of "joy"! Just remember the real reason for the holiday...it might make you feel a little better.

Julie said...

I'm sorry....I know exactly what you are going through, and it sucks big fat donkey dicks.

Do I need to send you some adult beverages? :)

Snooty Primadona said...

By the way, you're featured in my fantasy Christmas poem today...

QueenofPlanetHotflash said...

Welcome to the grich club so far myself and TSAnnie are members, December has always been a sucky month for me let's see, my Granny died on the 23rd in 1997, I had my jaw broken at work on the 12th of December 1988, we were robbed December 20th 2001, My daughter had a miscarriage December 15 2002 well you get the drift so I know what your feeling
I am sending many blessings to you & your family